Ivan rocks. Since 1986

2006-12-15T02:42:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

Got this from Den's blog. It was our innovative and fun prophecy game we played at Isa's exclusive birthday bash at Discovery suites.

Prophecies: (to be further edited)

MARRIAGE: the first ones to tie the knot
1. Isa
2. Isa
3. Benson

BACHELORS/BACHELORETTES: the ones who'll end up unmarried. Boo.
1. Joash
2. Rico
3. Abz

WITH A BEAUTIFUL SPOUSE
1. Mitz
2. Junjun
3. Ivan
*I wonder who I'll be marrying among them... Beautiful spouse. Hmm. HAH!

WITH AN UGLY SPOUSE
1. Jed (His will be have hairy armpits, three breasts, and three arms. Go Jed!)
2. Val (Haha! Black and bald.)
3. Ralph

HAPPIEST MARRIED
1. Ivan
2. Val ("Humanap ka ng pangit at ibigin mo ng tunay"= Happy Marriage!)
3. Mike

OBESE OBESE!: the ones who will gain so much weight, and end up sitting in his/her couch forever
1. Mike
2. Jed (You'll be purrr-fect for your wife, I swear!)
3. Val (and you too!)

HEARTTHROB:
1. Mike
2. Mitz
3. Val

WITH MOST NUMBER OF FLINGS:
1. Den (Whaaat?)
2. Rodis
3. Junjun (Oh I can tell why, Popeye. HAHA!)

PINAKALOYAL (Sa future spouse):
1. Benson
2. Barby
3. Junjun (Oh, are you kidding me? HAHAHA.)

HOTHOTHOT!: the 'supposedly' hot people
1. Joash
2. Rodis
3. Jed

SECRETLY IN LOVE: the ones who are currently in love with someone
1. Mitz (Abaaaa. Sino yan?)
2. Ivan
3. Benson

GAY/LESBO (secretly):
1. Benson
2. Val
3. Ralph

BIGGEST FLIRT:
1. Abz (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA x 10000)
2. Mitz
3. Carina

HEARTBREAKERS:
1. Barby
2. Isa (Asaa! Joke lang.)
3. Jed

EMO!:
1. Rico
2. Isa
3. Joash

FUTURE PASTORS:
1. Mike
2. Abz
3. Jed

CIRCUS MAN/WOMAN:
1. Carina (HAHAHAHA!)
2. Junjun (HAHAHAHAH!)
3. Mitz (HAHAHAHAHA!)

FINANCIALLY BROKE: the ones who'll wind up flat broke
1. Val
2. Jed
3. Rico

RICHEST:
1. Mitz
2. Barby
3. Junjun

SISIKAT:
1. Mike
2. Carina (Roight. In the field of circus! HAHA!)
3. Val

MIGRATE: the ones who'll end up migrating to another faraway land
1. Isa
2. Junjun
3. Mitz

OWN AN ISLAND:
1. Joash
2. Val
3. Ralph

CORN-SELLERS:
1. Ralph
2. Mitz
3. Abz (Hahahaha!)

BOLDSTARS: the ones who will end up getting paid to post nude! Haha!
1. Val =))
2. Ivan
3. Mitz

PRESIDENTS-TO-BE:
1. Ivan (A boldstar and a president?)
2. Barby
3. Mitz

GHETTO SUPAHSTAHS:
1. Jed
2. Ralph
3. Abz (A hiphop pastor, eh?)

MGA MAGKAKATULUYAN:
1. Ivan & Val (..or the Boldstar Couple! WHEE!)
2. Jed and Ivan (Eh?)
3. Ivan & Mitz (WTH?! How many times do you have to get married?!)

MGA MAG-KABIT:
1. Ralph and Isa (LOL)
2. Isa and Barby (WTH?!)
3. Val and Mike (Oh finally! Mrs. ValLu!)

CRUSH ON WHO?: The first name has a secret crush on the second.
1. Barby and Carina (?!)
2. Den and Carina (?!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
3. Mitz and Bens

*proves how homo we all are. haha!

And that ends it.

2006-09-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

Ivan.

Coming soon in Taft

Sept. 11, 2006

2006-08-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

On my soul your eyes are burned, lover's past forever spurned. One touch from you, my skin does tingle. How tenderly our breath is mingled. A single look and my heart swells, on my lips your kisses dwell. A thousand and a hundred score. A hundred and a thousand more.

2006-07-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Ivan.

2006-07-24T00:43:00.000+08:00

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart. Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart. A million words couldn't say just how I feel. A million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still. The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had. And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me...

2006-07-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either, but please believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide, to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and for the rest of my living years, to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land.

I Love you with the breath, the smiles and the tears of all my life. Happy 1yr & 5 months! <3

2006-07-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Superman floating above the earth.
Superman saving a falling airliner.
Superman gently holding Lois Lane and giving an aerial tour of Metropolis.
Superman taking a bullet in the eye and not blinking.

The Man of Steel is back.

Watched (ehem) my movie Superman Returns last night together w my fam at shang!(--,) kickass movie.

2006-06-05T13:50:00.000+08:00

Don't push me away because you're scared. I know you love me, and it's hard to love you if you won't let me

2006-06-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

We were jam packed with 3 parties this weekend. Barby's hat party, Rico's celebration in Jack's Loft Eastwood, and Joash's overdued banquet party for his family and friends.

And oh.. upon going home after Barby's party, Jed was driving and we had a "tire accident"(a harmless car accident). When you're involved in a "1st car accident" at 1am in the middle of the road with 3 other friends where you need to change the tire and wait for help...(whew!) it must be fun. Thank you Lord! ;)

2006-06-05T02:42:00.000+08:00

I've been a diehard Dallas Mavericks' fan for the past couple of years; I've tuned in to most of their playoff games all these years. And finally, after much distress of coming out short in the playoffs these past years, this year, they've beaten the Grizzlies, SPURS, and Suns. The Mavs are the Western conference champs and they're finally going to the NBA Finals!

2006-05-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

You're a Poodle!

No bones about it, you're a go-ahead-and-spoil-me Poodle. Intelligent and discerning, why should you settle for anything but the best? No good reason comes to mind. You appreciate the finer things in life, from the trendiest clothes to the best restaurants. Maintaining your health and appearance is a must -- you owe it to yourself to look and feel tip-top. The result? An impeccable fashion sense, perfect grooming, and the latest must-have "toys" and accessories. Unfortunately, that can be a little intimidating to people who don't know you. They might think you're a bit cold or distant. But your close friends know better. Your nearest and dearest can see beyond the glitz and glamour to the smart, considerate person within. Woof!

What Breed of Dog Are You?
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2006-05-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

My grandma celebrated her 69th birthday yesterday. We had the usual all-family dinner at their place. I'm really happy and thankful to the almighty for giving me wonderful granparents.

After dinner, I went to promenade to meet my highschool clique, which doesn't happen very often. A rare occasion for me I should say. It was Ronald's birthday celebration and he gave the guys a dinner treat at Dencio's. I wasn't able to join them on dinner, but anyhow I was able to catch up and watch the last full show of "Da Vinci Code" with them. 'really enjoyed the trademark laughable nature of my good ol' buddies.

WWE Raw in Manila

2006-02-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

The WWE RAW in Manila was without a doubt an experience I will never forget my entire life. Danell(my childhood buddy), Mark(my classmate), Roanna(my highschool friend) and I bought tickets for this once in a lifetime event once the news got off that WWE is coming in town. We got good seats, and we got to see almost all our idols that we've been seeing on tv all throughout our lives. As we were witnessing a once in a lifetime event, we can't help but go wild and scream our heads off as each wrestlers who made their ring entrance were cheered by us, the first-timer WWE crowd. Especially Triple H's entrance. The crowd went berserk! You can't blame us for getting goose bumps upon Triple H's ring entrance.. after all he's a big shot. A true superstar, the Game, the Cerebral Assassin, the King of Kings! The show was awesome and indeed simply entertaining. I don't care what the haters think, but WWE will be WWE. It's the ultimate soap opera for men! I've watched that show ever since I was a little kid.

I remember that I was the biggest HBK fan back then, my friends and I even used to wrestle each other, trying to imitate our idols. When Shawn Michaels left WWF due to his injury, he was out for a lot of years. Each and every week I tuned in to Raw, hoping that my childhood idol would come back, but he never did during the time that WWE was aired on Star sports. But if there was any consolation, I got the thrill of my life watching the glory days of the WWF during the time of Bret "The Hitman" Hart, Stone Cold, The Rock, Triple H, Kurt Angle, Undertaker etc... wrestling was just so much better before. At any rate, I am still a fan, and I think I will always be. This was the reason I wouldn't let this experience just pass me by. I would never trade the experience of watching WWE live for anything.

2006-02-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

thank u for visitng me today.. and the whole time that I was ill.. I feel better every time you're with me. :)

1st year anniversary!

2006-02-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

Happy anniversary! I'm glad we saw each other today... I love you! :)

2006-02-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

2005-11-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

It was one heck of a weekend. Me and the clique went to EK with den, isa, carina and barby. Had so much fun.. although some of my friends were "thinking twice" about riding the space shuttle. We slept at jed's place as usual. I was in high spirits because of numerous reasons, such as the EK experience, the sleepover, and it was also the night that I was anticipating Sharleen's arrival from their out of town trip.. its really hard to survive all those days without talking to her, I just am not used to that.

The next day, we were fetched by our d12 friends; and off we went to our out of town trip to Tagaytay. We ate at Leslie’s, and to our surprise, our dear d12 leader Dj paid the expensive bill. We hanged-out at Canyon Woods, played basketball and badminton, and went home on the same day too. Sem break's finally come to an end.

2005-08-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

I had the best birthday celebration ever. Gave my friends a treat at Gerry's Grill Promenade.. it was indeed unforgettable because of this 3 people who came. 1st, val&maybs, my 2 all time bestest girlfriends in the world came and celebrated with me. After seeing each other we just can't help but reminisce.=) it feels so good to reunite with those two.. I can't wait to hangout with them again. And last, the most special person in my life came. SHarleen, the love of my life. Its a first to celebrate my birthday with the one I'm gonna share my life with forever.=) Plus, all the people who meant alot to me came.. what more can I ask for? thank you Lord.=) 'nuff said.

2005-07-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

I have all the reason in the world to be happy right now. After everything we've been through, love counquered it all. Things have never been this great between the two of us.. life doesn't get any better, or sweeter when you share it with the one you love the most. I'm so blessed to have her in my life.. she's the woman I want to grow old with.. I love you Sharleen... =)

Its my birthday celebration this saturday.. another one of those moments worth cherishing forever. hey, 3 days to go and its my birthday.. =)

2005-06-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

got this from den... it struck me.

BOY: I saw her today.
GIRL: I saw him today.

BOY: It seems like its been forever.
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares.

BOY: She looks better than before.
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him.

BOY: I asked her how things were going.
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend.

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with.
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now.

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry.
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me.

BOY: I told her I miss her.
GIRL: He doesnt mean it.

BOY: I meant it.
GIRL: He didnt mean it.

BOY: I love her.
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend.

BOY: I held her for the last time.
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug.

BOY: Then I went home and cried.
GIRL: Then I went home and cried.

BOY: I lost her.
GIRL: I still love him.

2005-06-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way
Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?
Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind isbecause you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do you anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

2005-06-11T12:34:00.000+08:00

Last night was the most magical, and astounding night of my life... I'm right there, in the state of blissfulness wherein everything seems to be so perfect.. being with her makes me the happiest man in the world.;)

2005-06-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

A picture is worth a thousand words.. this pretty much up sums up my weekend.

2005-05-31T00:43:00.000+08:00

We're actually gonna appear in Kyla's "till they take my heart away" music video all thanks to Val.. I can't believe she talked me and Ralph into being characters of Kyla's music video.. But what's done is done. I'm hoping that everything would turn out fine.. (Den, I'm still that rocker dude you once knew) ...so after the exhausting music video taping, we went straight to Joash's birthday dinner, and had fun. Happy birthday dude!

Joash's birthday at Dencio's Megastrip. May 30, '05

downleft to upleft: Val, Barby, Isa, Jed, Joash, Bens, Gian, Me, Mitz, Ralph, Rodis, Erich, Mike

2005-05-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

As I always do for the past couple of weeks (due to my addictness to tekken5), I went straight to theatre mall right after Sunday worship. I was playing the percussion freaks at timezone when someone patted me on the back. Si Isa.. and Val. haha. I was surprised how friendly they were to me despite being the introvert that I am. I realized that the QH are fun to be with after all.. they invited me to watch a movie with them, they even bought a ticket for me just so I would "for sure" join them. Then Jed came and rose to the occasion.. haha. ;) we watched Amytyville Horror... now I owe both girls a treat.

Last monday-wednesday, we slept over at Jed's house.. last sleepover of the summer. We watched 'house of wax' last tuesday night at g4.. the movie was brutal.. and disturbing.. but I find it entertaining.. haha. All I can say is we got our meneys worth.

For some of my friends in taft.. its back to school on monday.. as for me, I have a couple of weeks left before school starts again. I'm going back to San Beda after all...

2005-05-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

Go ahead and address me as someone who makes much of small matters. I admit it. I've never felt misery like what I felt today. Yesterday, our long time maid left us, she went back to her province, I don't think she's coming back.. because of that, my father strong-willed that he will give away drei, our beloved dog, since he's not gonna be properly taken cared of anymore.. to make matters worse, my shobe didn't sleep here last night. I was left alone with drei.. while thinking things over, nilatag ko yung folding bed ni ate sony, dun kasi natutulog si drei, tabi sila ni ate gabi gabi. I talked with drei, as if he was a human. I can sense the sadness we both feel for ate sony's loss.. si ate nag-alaga sakanya since baby p siya e, and she was the perfect hwanapo.. she was the one who washes our clothes, prepares our food, cleans our house, all out of dedication. I felt devastated, my heart was overwhelmed with sorrow, seeing the folding bed empty, and wala ng nakaupo dun sa sala namin, na nanonood ng tv.. after that, I went back to our room.. drei usually begs for me to allow him to come into our room, or he usually knocks and waits outside our door. but for the first time, I was the one who initiated drei to come into our room.. while talking to sharleen on my cellphone as what we do every night, I watched him play with a pillow.. the sight of that breaks my heart for I know that's gonna be the last time I'll see him do that.. after awhile, he was sort of crying, sharleen told me: "diba sanay shang me katabi pag natutulog.. bat di mo kaya sha akyat jan sa kama mo.. sige na.. last night nanga niya diyan e.." it took me a lot of convincing from her, eventually I did what she told me. Nung inakyat ko siya sa kama ko, tulog kagad sha.. he looked so peaceful. after I woke up, I gave him his regular bath.. it was the first time I did that. tapos hinatid na namin sha sa uncle ko.. I can see in his eyes na kung pwede lang shang magsalita, sasabihin niya: "master, wag mo ako pamigay, I'll do anything, magbabago nako, susundin ko lahat ng tinuro nyo.. di niyo na ba ako mahal?..." that look in his eyes crushed my feelings, but I had no choice.. ayaw niya talaga paiwan sa atchak ko.. but we had to leave him behind.. right now I just got home from jzone, then theatre mall with ralph, after I opened our door, I felt tormented, not seeing drei, I still can't believe he's not here anymore.. his presence means so much..

You know what's the best thing about him? We never asked him to love us, but he does, he's the kind of dog who would risk his own life to save his master.

reunion with an old friend

2005-05-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

Today I went out with my old friends from st.jude.. danell, my childhood bestfriend and partner in crime since prep initiated this get-together. Its been almost 5 years since we last had a decent meeting. We played basketball, then hanged out and ate pizza at danell's new house. I had a hard time relating with the other guys.. coz even when I was in st. jude, they weren't really my closest set of buddies. Except for danell ofcourse. But it would have been a different story if I didn't leave my true alma mater.. after the get together, danell drove me to podium. On the way there, we had a nice talk inside his car. Just a concise update on how the both of us have been doing after all these years. We weren't able to talk about much, but it still felt great. I discovered similiraties regarding our lovelife. Sure a lot of things have changed, perhaps we'll never be the kind of friends like what we were before. but I'm stil happy... it feels good to reunite with an old "bestfriend".

2005-05-02T03:19:00.000+08:00

waah.. look who's having a kick-ass vacation at hollywood! para kelan lng pnpnood ntn cla spongebob tas ngyn frnds m na sila! daya mo! hahaha. den, wag mo kalimutan pasalubong ko a!;)

2005-04-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

jed's despedida at podium.. the pictures say it all. We're actually happy. hahaha. just kiddin. We'll miss you jed! wag mo kalimutan pasalubong namin! hahaha.

2005-04-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went to UST with the intention of talking to the assistant dean. He left his office when it was supposed to be my turn of talking to him. After waiting for 3 hours, he finally went back to his office and told me within 30 seconds to come back on the 27th to know if there's still slot available. What a heart ache... And the big problem: my enrolment at san beda is on the 27th too.

I went home with an uptight feeling, but still, I was all set to go to g4 to meet my friends. I went to g4 with Karl, we watched "Guess Who" together with den, diane, jed, abs & junjun. I kind of related with some aspects in the movie... thanks to that I was able to realize a couple of things... but I still haven't applied it to my life. After the movie, jed, junjun & abs left. So it was the four of us left. Me, Karl, Den and Diane. We ate at kfc, then we took pictures at U. It was the last time I'll be seeing denise this summer, she'll be leaving for states this Friday.

2005-04-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

Camp's after thoughts:
Delta J college camp was nothing but absolute fun. Ralph, Joash, Abs, Mike, Benson & I in one room... 4 days, 3 nights. Imagine that. Although we're not complete, (we missed out jed & the others) it still was 4 days of unconditional fun, 4 days of breakfast, lunch and dinner buffet meals, basketball, canoeing the lakes, mud sliding... total bonding. It's a barkada fairy tale coming to life where you truly are isolated with the troubles of the world. And ofcourse, the true essence of the camp was accomplished: to bring our sluggish hearts back on fire to the Lord.

2005-03-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

Emotionally wrecked, tormented feelings. It's like my heart was being pulled out of my system the past few days. Good things don't seem to conceal my poignant emotions. Fortunately, it's over now, I think..

We visited our amma & angkong this past holy week. We slept over at our cousins' room there. Last Thursday night, my dichack treated us at chili's, then the following night at aristocrat. Man, my uncle sure has a one of a kind way of splurging when it comes to satisfying his family. Despite the age gap and despite being the only guy among my cousins, I managed to have fun. It's always nice to spend a couple of days there.

Last Saturday night, I had one of the most craziest laughtrip conversation with den. It went on until 2am, haha. Crazy girl. Check out her blog, she has the details. Den's blog

It was cousin Mike's birthday yesterday. After worship, we went straight to Antipolo for his birthday gathering. A couple of our pals n gals from jzone came. Dj, Gian, Jed, Isa, Barby, Val, Sam, Janine... too bad the others didn't make it. Tambay lang. kain madami, lokohan, tawanan.. oi, Mike, nakakarami ka na sakin! Have faith in me. That's all I can say. Haha. Ayun, after the guys left, family thingy took place. (Mother side's turn) We individually spoke about our sentiments for the birthday celebrants, and the wedding anniversary celebrants.

Right now I just got home from t-mall with Karl... as usual, timezone & egg. Splurged. I'm really convincing him to consider studying at UST. Speaking of schools, I just found out that release of grades will be this Thursday.. whaaaa. For sure I won't get an 85% gpa, but I'm really keeping my hopes up. Kelangan ko lumipat sa ust next sem... no matter what the odds are!

Hay, she's finally home.. After days of dreadfully missing her. Our first conversation didn't turn out as what I expected or intended it to be... but who cares. At least she's home. =)

2005-03-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

I wasn't able to say goodbye to her.. they left at 4:30 in the morning.. when I woke up, I checked my phone. 21 missed calls and a message from her.. I'll miss you so.. I'll be praying for you every night, I'll be thinking of you every second, I'll be waiting till you get back home.. c'=

2005-03-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

Summer has officially started. its the carefree season once again. School year's finally over, now all I'm focused on is how I'm going to pursue my plans of transferring to UST next sem...

A recap of my previous week:

Thursday:
I went to UST, I met Sharleen's friends.. I guess I expected too much, things are slowly becoming too complicated..

Lately I've been spending a lot of time with my cousin Mike, we had a nice bonding moment, looking forward for a lot of things.

Friday:
I met up with my cousin Mike at mega, then after, we went to glorietta to meet up with buddies joash & ralph, hanged out at g4 for a while.. then jed picked us up and we went straight to rockwell for Jed's birthday celebration at Dencio's... the night out was great. What can I say. it was a blast. Although at some point that evening, I shivered with fear..(I guess I have to keep the reason for myself) thank God I have my friends beside me, I just over reacted, everthing turned out well, still.

After rockwell, we headed straight to Jed's house, another one of the ultimate sleepovers. We played tekken 5, gian made my letter of intent (thanks dude!), and we jammed. I called up sharleen while we were jamming, I serenaded her.. things between us ended up well that night, after all.

Me and the gang had so much fun, we slept at around 5 in the morning.

Saturday:
2 hours of sleep. after lunch, we had a nice devotional.. praise God for Mike's courage & wisdom. He tried his best to rehabilitate the d-group back to its true essence... He did well.. atleast we're all informed regarding the mistakes we've been doing the past few months.

We were late for jzone..

Sunday:
After Sunday worship, we ate at Sbarro, for the 2nd consecutive week! Italian food's the best urge-satisfaction in the world!

I didn't attend our d12.. instead I met up with Karl at t-mall. The usual, we played tekken 5 at egg. We're splurging too much money upon worthless things.

Things between me and her got out of hand, again, but thankfully, we were able to fix it. God knows.

Today:
Today's the first time I hanged out with Den. I kept her company at St. Jude while she was killing time waiting for her cousin and aunt. We ate at mcdo and watched spongebob movie. I had a great time.. I'm looking forward to more of that. Lately, she has become someone I could talk to, regardless of anything under the sun. thanks den!

I'm kinda sad.. because tomorrow, sharleen's family will be leaving the country again.. I have to go through a couple of days without talking to her again. I'll find a way to get through.

2005-03-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

We hanged out today... she liked my haircut!... haha. =)

...Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday
I'm in love.

2005-02-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

I went to UST today. I visited Sharleen...:) Jemma & Paul Russel, my old batchmates in st.jude who happens to be a sweet and wacky couple kept us company! I'm so happy I got to spend time with my one and only... ;)

UST's Lover's Lane

2005-02-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

Words are not enough to express what I'm feeling right now. :)

My Only One

2005-02-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

nothing compares! hayyy.. you know who you are! :)

much afraid

2005-02-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

empty again
sunken down so far
so scared to fall
might not get up again

so i lay at your feet
all my brokenness
i carry all of my burdens to you

all of these things
i've held up in vain
no reason nor rhyme
just the scars that remain
of all of these things
i'm so much afraid
scared out of my mind
by the demons i've made
sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
sweet Jesus, never ever let me go

so happy to love
yet so far to go
you lead me on to where i've never been before

all of these things
i've held up in vain
no reason nor rhyme
just the scars that remain
of all of these things
i'm so much afraid
scared out of my mind
by the demons i've made
sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
sweet Jesus, never ever let me go

-much afraid, jars of clay

2005-02-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Slowly as I began to move, flashbacks of gradeschool memories filled up my mind as I saw my old judenite friends at Valerine's debut... so much has changed. Danell, Allister, Ting, Benjie, & the rest of the "cool" people of our batch were there. It was just like yesterday when we were all just little kids, and now almost everyone's driving their own car. I exchanged his and hellos with friends whom I have lost contact with ever since I transferred to Montessori. A brief reminiscin with every friend I saw. Nothin beats the feeling. Valerine's party kicked-ass. Chris invited me to join the Judenite alumni basketball team, I said yes ofcourse. Its gonna be like '98 again. Can't wait to see them again.

2005-02-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

A recap of my previous week:

Tuesday:
Hanged out with Wella at mega.

Wednesday:
We went to manila hotel for our class symposium.

Thursday:
Anticipated the weekend ahead

Friday:
I saw Sharleen, we watched 50 first dates. And oh, Valerine, an ol' friend of mine from sj invited me to her party next saturday. Check out her kick-ass invitation.

Saturday:
We bummed at jed's house for a while.. then we went to ccf, it was Jzone's first anniversary. Nothin special. Jed had a date, Joash had to attend a wedding, abs had to rush home early.. Karl's with Phelle as usual.. everyone had their own rendezvous. I was left alone and so I joined my parents on coming home early. Boring Saturday night.

Sunday:
after worship, my parents bought me a new suit! astigggggggggg. me bgong suit nko. hahahaha. after buying, I met with my buddies for our weekly d12, it was the last time we'll see Tim & War, they're leaving for Australia. Team China ain't gonna be the same without those two. But they'll be back, perhaps next July. And we just found out that Jed's gonna spend the entire summer at Australia with his family as well. Kupal ka jedrikkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!

2005-01-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

The past few weeks have been agonizing. We're loaded with school works.. not to mention we just got through the midterm examination week. I did'nt do well with my exams. Great. Now my vision of transferring next sem is slowly slipping away. I could've done much better if only I exerted a little more effort during the hell week. I guess the thought of transferring doesn't incite me enough.

Despite being loaded with school works, somehow I manage to keep in track with my social life. I still get to attend Jzone every saturdays and hangout with my buddies every weekends. Last Saturday at jzone I received Kelly's debut invitation. She asked me to be part of her 18 roses last november, but now I think I'm going to be her 18 treasures instead. 18 treasures.. what more can I ask for.

After Jzone I watched Meet the Fockers together with Joash & Junjun. Entertaining, I should say, but its not the type of movie that would leave a mark to your consciousness.

I had a rendezvous with Denise last Sunday. Talk about coincidence, it was our first time to attend the 8am worship service. Perfect timing. Add it to my surprise, Den and her family were sitting right behind us. haha. We exchanged cds we burned for each other. And now all she keeps yakking about is her lss and addiction to Sponge Cola! lol. peace Den! ;) After worship we went to my lolo & lola's new house at antipolo, to feast on my mother's long overdued birthday celebration. My uncles requested me to bring along my basketball gears coz we're gonna play basketball. They're on their mid 30's-40's so its really hard for them to be running up and down the court so I kinda took advantage. It was fun. My first time to play basketball with my motherside uncles.

School has been very exhausting. Homeworks and thesis are overflowing. Stupid security guards are forcing me to cut my hair again. I've been coming home late the past few days and for the days to come because of the extra curricular school activities. All I'm looking forward to right now is the weekend. We might sleepover at Jed's house and jam the next day. I can't wait.

2004-12-29T21:56:00.001+08:00

Nice one Abs.. Looking good. Very creative, quite astounding.. but how come WE'RE not in it???

2004-12-29T03:18:00.000+08:00

"Christmas. just a word to some... a yearly event to others... or maybe, a time to indulge in a neverending shopping spree. it's so devastating how materialism and worldly garbages trash this very special occasion. i am in no point to be against those creatures, because i tend to be one of them at times. it sucks, y'know. Christmas is supposed to be all about Christ and His unconditional love. but what happens nowadays is all about getting gifts (i'm guilty), overspending after getting the much-awaited angpaos (guilty... again), worrying about the gifts to give away, and more. it's not actually bad to get into these things. but the thing is we (some of us) are pretty much bound to being "far" from the real essence of this great event. and this real essence is none other than the occurence or birth of Christ.everything practically started there, but we still tend to forget about it. hayyy.. " - Denise Cua

Nice one Den! You rock. ;)

2004-12-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

Christmas break started last Thursday. So far its been great.

To start off:

Friday:
We went to divisoria mall. My family bought a whole lot of stuffs. Considering divisoria is the bargain capital of this city, they really made the most out of the shopping spree. My father knows alot of people there... and it amazes me. He knows by heart the best restaurants in town, even the lowclass ones, and where to buy everything. Ofcourse, he grew up there.

Later that night, I met with my old highschool friends in Hua Lan greenhills. They haven't changed. Kwela parin pag nagsama sama. My heart was overwhelmed with excitement and joy that night because finally, after days & nights of anticipation wether or not Sharleen's parents would allow her to go to St. Jude on Saturday, she finally told me that after all, she could actually make it, unless her parents change their minds. I was going to meet her 7am at McDonald's Mendiola, but I was in a rendezvous with my old highschool friends until 3:30 in the morning. Oh well, Minsan lang naman.

Saturday:
I slept at arnd 4:30 and woke up at 6.. but its ok. I had a good vision for this day, I knew this day was gonna be worth it. I met with Sharleen at McDonald's Mendiola around 7am. We had plans of watching a movie at this chill-out place near my school, go to megamall, podium.. and go back to St. Jude. We went to megamall. Astig.. we rode the FX-Revo, it was her first time na mag-commute. Her parents would never allow her. The shops were still closed when we arrived, so we went to the lounge of the 2nd floor of ccf instead and waited. We just strolled around megamall & podium.. we ate lunch at Tokyo Tokyo and went back to St. jude. We rode the FX again, astig lng tlga. She was gonna meet up with her old highschool friends in St. jude and watch the St.Jude sportsfest. Di na natuloy yung movie nmin.. For the first time since grade 6, I went back to my old alma mater. I also met with some of my old friends.. boy oh boy.. I would never trade that experience for anything. Going back there really brings back alot of stuffs.. Unfortunately I had to leave early, its Jzone's Christmas party. And Mike's asking me to help out in setting up the place... My date with Sharleen would end here, it was something I'll always remember.

Jzone time.. last jzone of the year. The reminiscin part of 2004 melted my heart. It made me realize how time flies so fast. Jzone 2004 indeed was unforgettable, it changed my life forever, of who I am and what I am now. For the first time in my life, I'm actually contented. I'll always be grateful.

Sunday:
Way cool Sunday Worship service. It was the Last Sunday worship prior to Christmas. Christmas spirit is in the air. After worship, we ate at Teriyaki Boy, went to cubao to visit my amma, angkong & relatives, and I went back to megamall. I watched Harold & Kumar together with Joash & Jed. I'm not gonna comment on the movie, I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut.

Monday:
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Tuesday:
I was supposed to meet Joash and the rest of the gang right after dawn watch, but I overslept, so did my parents. We weren't able to attend the dawn watch. I met with Abs, Joash & Gian 10am in ccf, after meeting up pa-stroll stroll lang sa mall.. then we went to Jed's house. We jammed for a while, but we weren't able to borrow amplifiers and the other stuffs we needed. We just bummed around till evening at Jed's house. Around 7:30pm, we decided to go to glorieta. We intended to go there looking like sick & demented freaks by outfitting extraordinary wardrobes. Perfectly executed. We had a nice time in glorieta, we met the rest of the gang there, who were also gonna sleepover at Jed's. And oh, I saw Den.. she was with Junjun. Wala lang, nagulat lang ako nandun din siya.. Nakita pa tuloy niya kami looking like demented freaks. Haha..

Wednesday:
Still at Jed's house. We played basketball, swimming.. then we went to greenbelt to play counter-strike. humiwalay ako sandali sa kanila to meet with my old highschool friends who were celebrating Elly's birthday at Dad's.. I just dropped by to greet her personally. This day's fast comin to an end.. I really hate that feeling. The perplex feeling you encounter when you're facing the end of something fun-filled. I won't be seeing the gang for a couple of days. Oh well..

Sharleen's gone to Thailand, she's not gonna be around for 7 days. I'll miss her ofcourse.

2004-12-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

I was that close from bein wrecked with by 3 bad guys inside the jeepney yesterday. long story. Screw the hoodlums!

We played against the section A-Accounting class. Despite their talent, one of their players had this glaring attitude problem. He had an altercation with two of my team mates, Leo and Franz. We all didn't play well except for our team captain, Leo, who exploded and carried the team all throughout. But it wasn't enough to overcome the opponent's lead and so we fell short by 6 points. Must win situation tomorrow.

After tomorrow, I can finally give myself a break and look forward for this weekend. Sleepover kila jed! hahaha! Can't wait to bum around with the gang. Tugtugan sessions, late night pizza deliveries at "pool of love" na naman yan.

... There are just things in life that can't be expressed through words. What my heart is bursting out right now is one of them.

2004-12-04T02:49:00.000+08:00

I'm torn between silence and violent expressions. I'm tired of believing everyone wants to care. I cherish someone I'm so scared of never having.

2004-12-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

I met with Sharleen a while ago, hanged out for a while, walked & crossed the streets together...

First game namin sa basket kanina. We played against the section-B Accounting class. I intended to play strong, but ended up null. I was shut down. But all my teammates stepped up. We were down by a large margine throughout most of the game, but we made a miraculuous 2nd half comeback. Off the bench, Mark started the rally. We got the score all tied up with 11 seconds remaining in the 4th. And with 5 seconds left to play, Leo did what he does best. He delivered by hitting down the long trey. That sealed our first victory. hoo boy, we didn't expect the win, but we did, anyways. This pumps up our adrenalines. Next game is on friday though... I was supposed to spend that afternoon with Sharleen.. but now I can't.. darn.

the weekend

2004-11-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

sleepover kila jed las night. me, joash, abs, mike, dj & erich. tugtugan kmi nila abs, jed & joash till dawn. Played our favorites, and every song that popped out of our minds. We all opened up regarding our "lovelives, haha. Life's simply at its fullest when we're all together, as if nothin's wrong, no mishaps whatsoever. I definitely had fun, But unfortunately, I had to leave very early, my parents picked me up 5 o'clock in the morning for a short noticed family getaway. We went to tagaytay. Nothin much. Halos tulog lang ako the whole time.

shadows of the band

jed, abs, me, joash

Sloppy Firsts

2004-11-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

The harder I push the further i fall. I always seem to stumble upon situations wherein I gracefully bask in its rays, giving me so many things running in my mind, I don't exactly know where to start.. I'm not discontented. Actually, things have been working out quite well lately.. and that's what scares me. Talk about sedateness. Maybe I'm just not used to things working out well for me. Well, almost.

Yesterday was fine. Fair ng schl nila Den.. me & drummer boy jed went to their school, she was really great. She accommodated us.. Dun na pala nagtuturo si Sir Arguelles.. my 2nd yr Science teacher in msj, I was really shocked when I saw him there... Den toured us around her campus, astig computer lab nila. they turned it into a dark room with disco lights.. we stayed there and chatted, but the person in charge showed us the exit at the peak of a laughtrip conversation. badtrip.. haha.. d daw tambayan ung comp lab.. We just literally hanged-out sa Gideon, I had fun.. A sloppy first should I say. (I have my reasons) haha

Sinukatan na kami ng jersey para sa San Beda Psychology Men's Basketball team kanina.. I'm gonna wear #16, I dunno, change image I guess, my whole life I've been parading the #31.. haha... It was the last day of registration for the San Beda Rockfest battle of the bands, me and the rest of the 1-APS band were more than eager to join, and so we went to the student council. but darn our luck, wala ng slot for another band. We won't be roaring on Dec. 2 after all.. oh well.. It was a cloudy day.. but I had sunshine despite the weather! (haha baduy..) I had a date with Sharleen, a friend of mine from UST, whom I haven't seen since grade 6. Actually, hndi panga kmi mgkbgn nung St. Jude days ko e, it just so happened that our friend, for some unknown reason, introduced us to each other... aaah, long story. Basta we've been texting almost EVERYDAY for the past.. 104 days? hehe. We noticed the obvious physical transformation from each other, she's even more prettier now than I last remember. I enjoyed every second of her company. I hope we could get to hang out more often..

I've been spending alot of time with my family and relatives the past 3 nights at the hospital where my amma is confined. Thank God she's doing well now... Once again I'm standing in awe of my Rock and my Salvation.
Friday's almost over. Thank God its Saturday. The ultimate extravaggant day of the week! jzone! haha. infinite tripingss na naman with the gang. We're planning to sleepover at Jed's house as usual, just to make the most out of our long weekend.

So far its been a great month, the world hasn't been caving in on me like it always does.. the feeling's perplex, but might as well make the most out of it.

Slack start

2004-11-25T03:08:00.000+08:00

Add it to my misery, I just found out a while ago that my amma was confined.. and it really bothers me.. she's suffering from diabetes and temporary memory-loss.. but still, no matter what happens, I know God is in control. I understand that sometimes, we need to encounter such circumstance in order for eveyone to set aside the issues and come together as one.. indeed I am muddled. But I believe that through prayers, her ailment would surcease. Only by His grace.

Our intramurals is fast coming. Boy am I excited. It will be a section vs section basketball tournament, and it looks like I'll be getting alot of playing time. Gotta work on my stamina. My proposed design for our jersey wasn't favored, instead we'll be wearing the retro indiana style jersey. dilaw kasi dapat e. haha. Best of luck to 1-APS!

In the meantime, I'm lookin forward for tomorrow. Its den's schl's fair... me & jed are gonna gate crash! haha.. just kidding. we're invited! good thing wlng pasok bukas.